Im very SAD over my EX-BF ! Am i just his toy ??

We broke up & sorta completely stop contacting each other since 2 weeks back, after he said things which hurt me after we made love. He hit me last Aug and subsequently hurled abusive words at me when hes angry & on few occasions, hit me. When he tried to get violent, i left his aprtment and he called me selfish, so did his mom. He then got into depression & cut himself up but thats all history now. 2 weeks ago he met me for becoz he said he crave for me. After that, he said things like we cant be together etc coz he has too much fear of me leaving & forsaking him & he doesnt wanna hurt himself again. I was hurt & controlled myself from messaging him until 2 nites ago, he chatted with me on MSN telling me he saw my parents near his apartment, followed by telling me how HORNY he was but he dare not ask from me coz I would deemed that as im just his ' toy' which he claimed not. Im sad coz he seemed to know how to contact me when he has the needs, else i dont hear from him.Wat now?